The Great Shed - Love In The Dark

Note: This is Part 3 of The Metamorphosis Series. After dismantling the walls in [Part 2], I found myself awake at 4am in the final "shed" of the year. This is the moment a childhood wound was finally heard and released.

Read [Part 1] here.

My overseas trip is coming to an end and it has been… expansive. I thought I had shed all that I needed to in the year of the wood snake, but to my surprise, there was more. 

I should have known though - healing never stops.

This holiday has coincidently fallen with the last full moon of the wood snake and according to astrology the planets are creating some wild energy. So if you are wondering why this last week has been particularly charged… this could be why.

Travelling without children meant I had the opportunity to focus on myself energetically. During this trip, I've learnt so much more about myself and connected with Gaia on a deeper level.

The lead up to the final full moon of the wood snake has been a ride, but the final shed was so revealing that its left me processing it at 4am after a short 3 hour sleep.

Like everything, over time, the very thing that needs to be healed will eventually be revealed. When we are calm enough and have learnt the cues of our body, healing can happen anywhere. 

You don't need to be spiritual, or at a healing retreat. If you listen, you will be able to receive the healing and messages. An awareness and acknowledgement of your external and internal environment is all you need. 

That's what happened yesterday, during the full moon. 

I met a new friend recently. 2 things really stuck with me after our conversation - the idea that I give compliments, but later comment that I compliment everyone - taking away its meaning and impact. It's an innocent thing that I do. 

The other was the concept of love - how finding love is truly about loving oneself unconditionally. When we try to find love in others, it's often wrapped up in the guise of something else. 

You're probably thinking… These are some deep conversations with someone that I've just met. 

It is. 

But everything happens for a reason.

I started listening to music and “Love in the dark” by Adele came on. Immediately it felt significant. 

Even though this song is about leaving a romantic relationship, I saw this as a metaphor for me separating from a limiting self belief. 

The opening lines...

“Take your eyes off of me so I can leave

I'm far too ashamed to do it with you watching me.”

It took me back to a memory of my childhood where I got “the look”. The look that spoke 1000 words. The one of disapproval that silenced my soul and left me feeling disappointed.

In one moment, it anchored in a deep belief of unworthiness which later in life presented as an emotional intimacy wound.

The type of wound which keeps people at bay, pushing them away when they get too close. Desperately latching onto people and relationships in the name of love, when it's actually a guise of your own insecurities. An experience that never truly allows anyone to enter your heart. Because if it opens, they can see how disappointing and unworthy you are.

I can see how that showed up in my life. As a child and adolescent, I never felt like I had a best friend, people dear to me would be pushed away when times got hard, or serious. I would give compliments, but then subtly take them back, in case anyone got too close. 

These are subtle ways that this wound had shown up.

In a way, this song is an acknowledgement to that 3 year old inner child. She is being heard. She is being seen. The more we hold onto this wound, the more we are closing ourselves to love, abundance and our worth.

It's the release of the hold this wound had on her that we say goodbye to. It's a release of the handcuffs to open the heart. 

It's an opening to invite love in all shapes and forms and receive the abundance that will inevitably follow.

When you learn to love yourself unconditionally, you open your capacity to receive abundance and love.

So allow the 2026 fire horse burn away all that was shed in 2025 and carry you to abundance.

It's a new year, and it's time to do things differently.